Wednesday, December 28, 2016

My Testimony About GOD's LOVE-
A True Story About Me
How I Discovered God's Grace

I have shared this most personal story only once before publicly; then, it was in front of families gathered at a wedding reception, eight years ago.

The following is the truth about me, your Local Malcontent, and how close I came to suicide, before GOD himself, through Jesus Christ HIS Son and my saviour, intervened.

I remember (Too Clearly) Christmas Eve of 2007:  After I got off work at the McAlester Choctaw Casino at 11:30, I drove back home to an empty lake house, save for my dog, Amos, which I'd inherited from my parents, on the banks of an ugly, smelly Lake Sardis, in Yanush Oklahoma, population about 100.  So near to the end of the world, you could see it from there.

I had no one to celebrate with-- I had nobody to buy gifts for, because I had no real family~  oh, cousins and widowed aunts, or a distant uncle....
My celebration of "Christmas" that year consisted of downing another bottle of Jack Daniels bourbon whiskey...   Just another night, Just another painful, personal reminder of distant close family get togethers, and of Hope, 

to/for which I was denied.

I took my bottle and began to drink from it, wallowing in my own crappulance/misery, and somehow ended up outside my house, hiding in the bushes, hiding up in a tree from nonexistent spying eyes, hiding, hiding from everyone. Everyone else who had a family to rejoice with, unlike me.

And I had a battery operated CD player with me that night, that Silent Night, that Silent Night when my life changed, that Silent Night when my life changed because I cried out to GOD, that Silent Night when my life changed because I cried out to GOD that I was afraid of being alone, so alone.

I got very drunk.  I slept outside that Christmas Eve night, hanging over a low magnolia tree branch.  With Mannheim Steamroller's "Stille Nicht" replaying over and over on that CD player.  [read 'passed the hell out drunk and alone]

GOD heard my desperate drunken prayer for help that night.

And GOD answered my prayer with love which only HE could envision.

I look back on that night of drunkenness, with gratitude and profound amazement, because I was a desperate sinner, bound for Hell--- and yet, GOD took loving pity upon me, as I hung doubled-over on that magnolia tree branch, passed out~ on Christmas Eve,

and He answered my desperate and nearly final prayer to Him with finding the love of a woman, the love of such an extraordinary woman, with finding the love of such a simple, Choctaw woman, with finding the love of such an extraordinary love of a simple, Choctaw woman, who was also looking for a love for her life.

....  Leticia Hunter and I were only acquaintances at that time, and only through the drive-through window of the bank I used.  But after my prayer to GOD that 2007 Christmas Eve night, and after I'd sobered up, & woke up, doubled over on a tree limb,

This young woman asked me through the drive through window, if anyone else was on my Choctaw Nation account, who could draw off my checking account.

"No, it's only me," I replied, wondering if somebody had tried to....

Leticia Hunter then asked, "What's your date of birth?" And I told her, becoming more convinced that maybe someone had impersonated me with a check made out to "cash".

"Could you come inside for a moment, please?" the teller of my destiny then asked.

I did so.

... It was less than a week before we had our very first date, on December 28, 2007.
... it was just over a year that we were married,
on December 28, 2008.


Now we've been married 8 unbelievable years today, we've been through so many struggles, lost one adopted child, then my diagnosis of prostate cancer in 2012,  I cannot begin to describe here (though I have along the way, look for it), and now through another Gift from GOD and through Leti's patience, we are blessed with a miracle child whom we created ourselves, Kelsey Marie.
Does GOD hear prayers?  Does GOD answer prayers? 

I hope that my/our story of love uplifts you and gives you hope;  My/Our GOD is an awesome GOD, and HE loves you the very same as HE loves me/us.

Does GOD hear your prayers? 
Does GOD answer prayers?  

Matthew 7:7-12.  It is so simple.  So simple and beautiful
Humbly, Ask your loving Father, from Jesus' own words: 

7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

9 Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?

10 Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?

11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?

12 Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.

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